Sept 15 Happy Heavenly Birthday Paul

A Photo of Paul that my friend Janet gave to me she laminated Paul's picture on to a rainbow....

October 1, 1966-September 15, 2001-
Paul's heavenly 6 Th Birthday
This is the day that the Lord Has made let us Rejoice and Be glad in it... was the song I woke up singing today. This is a worship song that we have not sang in years...and it was on my mind the very first thing when I opened my Eyes up today....

This to me Is Paul's day.....
A rather long story of rainbows......
Rainbows
Rainbows have always meant so much to me...They are so awesome. The many colors of life. Some are bright yellow and happy colors ,and then there are the very deep blue color that may make us think of very blue day. Or times when we are blue. This beautiful rainbow has always meant to me the combination of all the colors of our days and our lives and that God has left a convent to us. There they are all the colors bunched into the colorful rainbow that makes up the colors of ones life. For some reason it would not be quite as beautiful if it would have been all one color..say all yellow or all blue..

Six years ago today our family's life changed for ever in a moment. This was the week a lot of lives changed forever. 5 Days after 911. Our son Paul, was taken out of this world in a heartbeat. God in His Mercy in Paul's case took him home right way.There were no times for Goodbyes, No fair wells. No extra I love yous. As a mother over the next year there were thoughts that I would never survive such grief. The hole in the heart was so big it was even heart to breathe. the very few days that follow now seem like a blur,and thought survival was not possible. Having others sons and seeing there hearts breaking was also more heart breaking. My husband and I grieved totally diff..... it pulled us more apart over the months then finally back into each others arms for comfort.

Now the story of the Rainbow....

I call it Paul's rainbow to me....

I had been praying continually for a sign that everything was alright. Paul was OK. Although I knew in my heart he was. About a month or two after Paul's died my friend Karen came to my house and said I was going for a ride with her no choice... she pulled me out of the house to go with her to pick up a birthday present, it had been a raining, then the sun was coming out. Going into town the most beautiful rainbow came out and she said this is your rainbow your sign, it is for you..... it is a sign you have been waiting for ....by the time we had returned home with many tears on our face. there were calls on the ans machine saying " Did Ya see it???? The Rainbow the awesome rainbow.??? You had to have seen it ...it was just for you.....Everyone who saw the rainbow was telling me it was just for me...A sign from Paul he was OK.... This was just the beginning ....

Written on an Amtrak train....rolling over the hills coming home, another sleepless night from the Memorial service held for our fallen Officers Killed in the Line of Duty

thoughts on
Washington DC
Capital lawn was great, seeing the president was great, but seeing God at the candle light vigil had to be one of my greatest moments ever. The winds and storms of the evening threatened to delay the memorial candle light ceremony. 18,000 people were waiting for the ceremony to begin, when the most beautiful double rainbow appeared out of a cleared, stormy sky. . it was indescribable the feelings that fell over the crowd.
The COPS had this most beautiful laser thin line going through the sky but nothing man could have prepared could ever be like this. God in His glory giving us all a site to behold. It was awesome.

Over the next 6 years we would see rainbows and find such comfort in them and they always seemed to appear just we needed them most.

Now back to the present........
Last night we were at a friends house for dinner it was a typical UP fall like weather. Rain, sun, talks of Frost . After dinner when we were leaving . My husband was taking things to the truck and he called to me and said quick come over here to the door and to come outside and look. This was one of the most spectacular Rainbows we have ever seen... the amazing this is it ended right in our friends yard. The end was right there, you could see and you could have ran out and put the bucket down.....it was truly the end of the rainbow...and. for one fleeting moment my husband and I both saw the double.rainbow...it was only for a few seconds.

Now some would say this is a coincidence but I don't believe in coincidences......it was our sign....Everything is all right.

I hesitate to tell my story as some may say where is my rainbow, my sign...... believe me it is there. You have to look for it..... For some people we know it has been looking down and finding a pennies from heaven..

All we know God is Good all the time.

now we have came to the place where we are so thankful that we had Paul in our life as long as we did. Not everyone gets 33 years.

We don't have to try and fig everything out...I tried.It is exhausting and can not be done. ...... But the one thing we do know is that..

God is Good .........all the time.
Today we are having a lunch at 1:00 of everything Paul liked to eat. Paul died at 1:08..... A lot of the family will be here. There may be a few tears but the one thing I know is there will be laughter. Paul was a clown..
so today it will be Hamburgers, French Fries, and choc chip cookies ,choc milk( our family comfort food) thats what will be on the menu.....and it will be truly be a day God has made, and we will rejoice and be glad in it.....

Photos from Paul's life on link below

http://family.webshots.com/album/31795241pvUZyNcLsk